Just thinking about some recent work I did in a school. I amaze myself sometimes with my different expectations of people based on their ethnicity. I seem to always expect that non-white people are politicized - when often, just like anyone else, they are not.

I really do have 2 different sets of expectations, which I know is problematic but I keep doing it because... I don't know. I guess I have to think about that.

I also think I sometimes expect a pat on the back from non-white people when I am voicing nice liberal attitudes which I don't expect from white people.

Recently I had a chat with a friend who commented that he is surprised that I can write an entry nearly every day. He is Oriental and says his share of racist comments. I told him it takes discipline to acknowledge the fleeting in myself and those around me. I think he believes I am obsessed but it is there.

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